It’s been almost a year since I posted on this thing, which seems to be a trend now, but I honestly don’t mind. Maybe one day I’ll decide to fully commit to the “writing thing” and actually start updating on a more consistent basis, but for now this space is mine and it feels like home. I love coming back to this little corner I’ve etched out for myself in the cyber world and seeing how much I have changed and grown over the past few years. I’ve never been the type to have any sort of 5-year plan. I don’t even know where I’m going to be in the next 3 months…but that hasn’t stopped me from feeling happy and content with where I am. I’m proud of myself. I feel a little bolder, a little stronger, a little more brave than I’ve ever been before.
I don’t know what I want to do with my life, but I know who I want to be. I want to be honest and trustworthy. I want to be kind, but not a pushover. I want to care about others more than I care about myself. I want to help people see their own beauty and watch them shine their lights out into the world. I want to be vulnerable and giving, but I also want to be independent. I want to be emotionally healthy. I’m learning how to take care of myself, to not need anyone else to be happy. I think I’m getting better at it, and that feels good.
Maybe it’s just the Christmas season that brings all of these warm, fuzzy, contented feelings out of me. But life is good right now, and I’m not mad about it.